The days I spend in my apartment during the summer are plentiful. I have not many friends who have stuck around for the summer and even if they have, I have not contacted them in awhile. My friend actually texted me the other night asking me to come over to her apartment and kill a spider, which like, no, but I said I would. However, she found someone else who was willing to kill it first and complained TO ME about how I HAVE BEEN FAILING HER!!! My deepest apologies ma'am, I wasn't aware you affection was a race that I was LOSING!
I've been spending my days trying to ignore my classwork that has been piling up. Tonight I almost fell asleep while watching recorded lectures that I had to finish by midnight, until I realized I had a SECOND HOUR LONG LECTURE I had to watch, and I can only speed it up to 1.5x, not even 2x. I have also been victim to youtube tiktok compilations which feed my addiction to social media. I still have my daily time limit of 20 minutes a day for all social medias that I use up almost instantly and then fall down the youtube compilation rabbit hole, so I am truly doing nothing to help myself out.
My summer would truly be sad if I didn't make a point to get out of the apartment once a day. Every night I have been volunteering at my local animal shelter to walk dogs. It's been nice, and I meet a lot of nice people there, but they are all old enough to be my parents, or in some cases, grandparents, so there's that. I met one girl my age there like 3 weeks ago and haven't seen her since, and I go like every night, but part of the problem is that I go at night, so yeah. Tonight though I was with this one volunteer(who I now recall, never gave me her name) asked if I would help her take out this sick dog pairs, and I said yes, however I did not expect that this would mean I would leave the shelter a 9:05 PM!!! She would talk a lot an not really say anything, just talk in circles and keep repeating herself, and explaining things I already knew, even if I am a new volunteer, doesn't mean I'm stupid. I was tired as fuck when I left and then I had to shower cause I smelt like wet dog and mulch, and then watch lectures that I almost fell asleep to, and then write this. Just let me sleep!!!
AND TOMORROW I HAVE TO WRITE MY 2 ESSAYS FOR MY EXAM!!!
sleeping, crying, and dying,